So, my life is... normal. somewhat.

I'm crushed, but I'm okay.

not much to write about really... I'm in a better mood now that summer is here. n_n

and... I've been shopping abit.. which gives me a happy mood. hehe.

my bestiss also does extremely well on her photoshoots... in my opinion atleast.
so check her out please.. [link] ;D



- René

Geeezus.

Stuff here, stuff there....

I'm so confused half the time that I don't even know what's left and what's right...


but, on a side note... I think I might kidnap myself some tools of the trade.


- on a different note, I got the greatest idea EVER, that I want to make into reality.. but I'm not sure that I'm allowed to.. hm.

That has kinda... not stopped me before.. I just need to contact the correct people... myes...




oh, and thanks to all my friends. you make me feel great.
(also, some of you are AWESOME at saving ^^)

oh - and, especially to; "Deshi", you really are the best, and I'll forever be happy that you're in my life. n_n

Umh - small update...

I'm using the site more, I'm doing more stuff...

and well, I've got a new "job"-request... which I find fun, and very interesting.


eeeep - useless journal update... but better than "last day of the year."


hehe....


People who make me smile and make me happy;

Deshi
Brød

Well, the last day of the year is coming up.... It's interesting... I've done so much this year... though it feels like I haven't done anything of what I wanted to do when the year first started... It changed... and I won't lie... I've had a couple of up's and down's but all in all.... This year will go out in memory as a year I learned alot about myself and what I want to be for others....

I have made alot of friends... and well... I've also made what I would like to call... a very close friend whom I trust more than anything, and I hope I haven't made any enemies... allthough I most likely have made some..... as expected when I walk my path of Justice... I hope I've atleast made the lives of some of the people I know... better in some ways atleast

I've got so much that I want to write but no way to write it... hmm, Alright.. I'll make it short;

To all my friends and the likes... thanks for being you, you've made me who I am... behold; la vache is your creation.... or something like that... sound's abit twisted maybe... oh well.... *laughs* that makes me think of the joke that still cracks me up... I poked kanmu's nose and she said; "oh noes"... I laughed alot... It's fun to play with words.. anyways... the next year will be even better... for all ;D - Just you wait... I'll try my best to make sure of it.. and well... that's a promise and I never break my promises...

For a last update on my life the last couple of days... I've had a strange christmas... one I'm not used to... I spent alot of time on monday and tuesday being sad about something... but it seems it's evened out..... I'm still abit sad at times... but who isn't... right? I'm so glad for yesterday... somehow.... it meant alot to me.... and I'm glad that I can enter the new year with a happier face.
Arigatou, Deshi. ^^ - Be yourself.


For the new year I have alot of wishes... and hopes... even promises that I'll try to keep.... I don't want to write them here... I'll update them some other place so that I have an excuse to write again... yes yes... use the excuses to your advantage namaan! *laughs*

; everyone: Have a Happy new year... may it bring you happiness and joy!

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Current song: Domino - Mickey Mouse March (eurobeat)
Current mood: Intrigued.

I had a strange dream last night... it was actually somewhat scary... Anyways... I won't dream of that again... cause that was so twisted and f*cked up that I don't even want to re-live it in an alternate world where nothing is real... nothing...

I've not had any time to take any pictures at all... allthough I found lot's of great motives I've had NO time to do any of them... which annoys me so much... now my vacation has started so I might go about finding the time to take som pictures then... all I've taken pictures of lately are friends... and I don't feel like I can take credit for taking a picture that captures their beauty.... or something like that...


- I've been away from this alot... and away from the culture forum thingy alot... I'm rather annoyed by my own ability to create problems where there are none at first... Wouldn't you agree that it's a silly thing? I do...

I was at a Christmas Ending thingy, one held by the school of a couple of my friends... I had quite an enjoyable time... and well.. I wasn't even bothered by the presence of someone who I do not have much left over for... (to put it in a nice and "gentleman" way... *laughs*) Knowing that she didn't invite him or even inform him about this cause I was coming was one of the sweetest things one of my friends could have done for me. I like the idea of actually meaning something for someone.. sounds silly but you all know what I mean by it....
She got her Christmas Wish during this thing aswell... I smiled... alot... and I'm sure if she could have seen my eyes then she would have seen what they reflected... nothing of what they did when she later looked at them...

lastly.... I think.. I might be unhappy with what I write... but that's something I'll have to live with.
I've been thinking alot lately... how I used to be... and how it helped me.... Keyword in this is how it helped me... and NOBODY else... WHAT THE HELL is a man if he's not something for someone? At the fear of sounding like a random character in Naruto.... "Do you have a precious person?" think about it...... if you know the answer to that.. make sure your actions reflect that... and you'll sleep well at night... I promise.
I'm happier now..? I think.

I wish I could let other's see through my eyes.. so that they could see how strongly I feel for certain things... and the annoyance certain things create... I will continue trying to like certain people though... for my friend's sake..

anyways..
Hope everyone enjoys their christmas presents...
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Current song: Christina Stürma - Mama (Ana Ahabak)
Current mood: Broken Hearted... regaining face? regaining confidence? Yeah... I am.. also happier now... (all things considering.)